This is what I want to remember right now: I am blessed. So enormously blessed and loved and full of love. I feel perfect in my life and in my physical body, right now in this moment. Why? I don’t know and I can’t figure it out, but that too, doesn’t matter. It’s enough that I am. I want to remember in the moments when petty aggrivation and sadness come, how blessed and happy I am. That whatever it is can’t possibly match up. That I have no cause or excuse for even the tiniest amount of sadness. That this life is extraordinary, remarkable, and that it is mine. How? I don’t know that either. I’ve been entrusted with the most perfect, caring, person in the universe and he is mine. This is what I feel blessed for most in my life, and luckiest for. This is what I am thankful for almost every second, and what I should be thankful for every single second. How I found him I’ll never know, but I am happy.
I used to feel guilty for all that I have, when I don’t deserve any of it. But lately I feel that I do, as much as anyone ever can. And instead of guilt, now I just feel gratitude.
We spent the evening outside, grilling and gardening...
Yay! for a new pot so that I can cook some of my favorite recipes, including Wendy's chili! We've been using my giant stock pot to catch water when the roof leaks, and the thought of cooking in it after that just grosses me out. I was trying to hold out for a Le Creuset dutch oven, but saw this at the grocery store on the cheap and picked it up. It was only $20 bucks, so if I make it to the Le Creuset outlet anytime soon, I won't feel bad about buying one of those too.
2 lbs. ground beef
1 (29 oz.) can tomato sauce
1 (29 oz.) can kidney beans, with liquid
1 (29 oz.) can pinto beans, with liquid
1 c. diced onion (1 medium onion)
1/4 c. diced celery (1 stalk)
1 (29 oz.) can diced tomatos with green chilis
2-3 tsp. cumin powder
3 tbsp. chili powder
1 1/2 tsp. black pepper
2 tsp. salt
2 c. water
- Brown the ground beef in a skillet over medium heat.
- In a large pot, combine the beef plus all the remaining ingredients, and bring to a simmer over low heat.
- Cook, stirring every 15 minutes, for 2 to 3 hours.